… I think it is the end of the year, the family distance, the work without break (after 2 years having constant breaks), the worries about future, the diets that last 2 weeks… I am done. 2011 was a great year… a lot of new challenges, but I am ready to move on. It has being hard to weak up… today the alarm clock ringed for 3o minutes.

During the day I went to manicure.. always wanted to do it during lunch time. I didnt like the place I went, but at least now my nails don’t look so ugly. I ate at Mc Donalds … yes, not healthy at all… but I really need grease, bad and fat food… of course I feel guilty after and almost cry.. yes, the circle of fat person. My emotions domain my mouth. What can I do?

I went to grocery and Marshalls, both small gist for a White Elephant in the company. Tomorrow will be a busy day, specially because Thursday and Friday I will be out of office. I am happy that Jan is going for a Happy hour tomorrow with a friend’s husband (that now is his friend). The one that is German like him… so glad to see his life getting in place.

I am researching a lot about my father disease… I need to feel I am doing something for him, for my mom, I need to learn more and more about it and what is the best way to have a good life besides all challenges. Mom, I am here with you all the time! Love you!

YESTERDAY: I woke up early to go to my first laser hair removal session. I have never done this before so I have no idea if the place is good or not. It was really fast… 5 min session.. and it hurts a lot.. a lot… I was sweating after this 5 minutes. I have  more sessions before I am free of hairs n my bikini line. Can’t wait for this day!!

I went to King of Prussia to buy Jan’s gift… it was packed at 10h30 .. unbelievable.. but I bought his present so I am happy! In the afternoon we went out for some shopping and a final stop at Ikea to buy our linen closet to our guest’s bathroom… after resting for one hour we got ready to go to Philly – 2 parties… It took us 25 min to arrive in the city and one hour trying to find a spot to park.. or even a parking lot… so the whole amount of time we had for the first party was spent with bad humor and stressing moments… we went to the second party: a costume holiday party organized by some Fuqua friends… the party was really fun, specially the costumes. Of course Jan and I didn’t wear anything because a) we dont like costumes, b) we would be in a normal party before…

after the party we stopped at SOHO pizza , the best pizza I had in US so far (diet, what diet??) but the people there was really rude… not fun to buy.. and after getting our slice they “asked” us to go outside to eat, in the cold weather… they just can treat us like that because the pizza is AMAZING!!

TODAY: all day in pijama… organizing our home, building our IKEA linen closet, washing clothes, cooking, ironing, etc… and now I am trying to get ready to work.. though i would really appreciate one more day at home

I need to go to the gym this week.. I really do!

This week is finally over. Thank you! I couldn’t have one more day .. I need to rest and have sometime to myself… it was emotional intense, not work intense (i mean it is always work intense…) I had a better day at work, with a lot of laughs and some good moments with the new team. I went to downtown to meet Jan and a friend from Fuqua (he is Venezuelan and lives in Richmond). He was here for the day and we went for dinner. more…

after a day like today, that sucks… sorry my french, I realize I cannot complain. I do have problems, but I didn’t lost my job today. I don’t know how I would be devastated without a job. Yes, restructuring happening in the company. People we like being laid off, others changing role s and position.  It’s is so sad. Unfortunately, at the end of the day it is just money, profit and headcount is pretty expensive.

It was a day of gossip, all around until the time we heard the official news. But then gossip continue, about people that was laid off. Nobody could concentrate or do a decent work.

I went to Target to get distract and buy some presents and ornaments for my tree.. but left with some small ornaments and chocolate for my admins. I need to buy Jan’s presents, but can be online or at the store. I think I will go to store.  I want to understand the difference and try something he wants.

Now I am here, thinking about going to bed… not wanting though since tomorrow will still be a hard day!

My mom’s favorite phrase. She will probably be mad that I making this post about her, but it is an interesting piece of communication!

She normally sends this short emails that freak me out. I live abroad, I have a sick father and every time I read that I think something bad happened. Ok, maybe it is my mind set… but I do think it has an urgency on that, specially because it was 7pm and I normally call her around 6h30… and if I was in a meeting, or my battery run over?? She would probably also think that something bad happened… See mom, what a confusion… I cant call you everyday in the same time… and please when you just want to know where I am, send me a nicer and longer line!

I love you! I am home, safe and sound….

What is GTA? A XBOX Game. What am I doing? Playing with Jan. It is fun! I crazy drive for his missions and he destroys it! I read somewhere that it is good one girls/girlfriend/wife can relate to their husbands hobbies. I do like video game and I really like this game… so we can have a great time together. I need to say though that I do my best, but Jan sometimes complains that I am doing wrong…

The day was great. A good Monday. I got an award for accomplishment… 2 others ABMs and I implemented an internal marketing newsletter, and we were awarded for that. It is a good feeling of being recognize for something we did…

A lot of work and meetings and I was home around 7pm… i made the worse dinner ever in my wife life and then watched Jornal Nacional (the main news in Brazil)… it is good …

that is it…

Both. Since I was sick at home, I got homesick, since these kind of  days really increase how much I miss my parents. I cannot complained though: my husband took amazing care of me: soup, tea, snack, movies and a lot of kisses. So lets go to my weekend:

Friday: the day a social event for summer candidates to my company came to visit us. I planned the social events and I was looking forward for them. The Happy Hour was great. Talking to spouses, answering questions, great moment. I arrived home to pick up Jan and go to dinner at city. I didn’t drink at all (since I already have had 2 glasses of wine at HH). After the second plate I got super dizzy, felt full and couldn’t even look the third and main entree. I asked Jan to bring me home right now… Of course I couldn’t wait to arrive home and I throw up in our way home So sad. And that was the rest of my night… going to the bathroom every hour… so sick, nausea,… argh. more…

Yesterday I was so tired because I had to wake up really early that I didn’t have energy to post anything. I had though a great talk to my mom when I arrived home. It was great.. I miss these moments a lot!

Today was a calm day. One meeting the whole day… unbelievable! great opportunity to have the job done! This night we had a party at the building to meet other neighbors and mingle. It was really nice and I wish they would organize this kind of event more often.

Now I am ready to go to bed…. this week was really fast. Can’t believe Thanksgiving dinner was one week ago…

Today rained from morning to night – non stop. Of course I didn’t suffer so much since I spent the whole day inside J&J building. It was a super busy day with meetings all day long, just like the rain!

WE went to the gym at night…. 30 min in the treadmill… we started the day having breakfast with Nadia and Sebas and now I am ready to bed… seriously… tomorrow I need to live

I had a great day back to work! A lot of work and meeting but it was great. I am really tired though since I was not able to sleep until 1 am something…

My friends from Richmond to visit us for one more night and I made a chicken strognoff.. not with the correct recipe and was missing the potato, but it was still good. For dessert, banana flambada with vanilla ice cream. we had wine, played… it was great.

Great way to start our Monday!