I am 29 years old, married, from Brazil, MBA student and fat! Yes, it took me a lot of time to say that word, but after looked at my pictures in Disney this Christmas there is no other word to describe my size.
When people started to wonder and, worse, asked me if I am pregnant, I always answered in a good mood, no I am just over weight… is that a problem? Some people can say no, but for me, yes, it is a BIG PROBLEM… THE PROBLEM.
Since I was 14 years old I have been fighting with my weight and tried all different kind of diet and miraculous medicines. Sometimes it really worked and I was the happiest person in the world, but after some time I gained everything again. I don’t accept myself fat, I feel ugly, I wear large clothes and not feminine things anymore (like dresses that always make me feel a truly pregnant), I start to sweat only in thinking about wear a bikini and I continuous eating.
Why? Why I can be strong enough to quit smoke and study to get a MBA in US but not to do a strong diet and exercises to have the body that would make me feel good? The answer? I love food, and I have an eating compulsion. I can’t only eat a piece of bread or a small bit of chocolate. If I start I need to eat the whole bread or the chocolate box. I have one in my mouth and I am thinking about the next. Isn’t that crazy?
Ok, but what my history has that is different from all girls and women that feel the same thing? Nothing. I just decide to put a goal this year and use a new strategy to see if that time it will work: I want to share the day by day with you, I want your support and suggestions, I want to inspire and help others with the same feeling and problem.
So here is the goal: lose 17 kg (38lb) in 223 days -august 14th (my sister’s weeding in Brazil).
Wish me luck!